| it ain't nothing but more hot shit |
[05 Jan 2007|05:07pm] |
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Mmmm... yeah that's all I've gotta say.
No wait:
I made New Years resolutions! I plan to keep them!
* I watched "What the Bleep Do We Know?!" and now I'm convinced that I can create my own reality. I know that sounds rediculious... but it's really not. It's all about not getting addicted to emotions and breaking the strong bonds you'd created in your brain because of repeating the same actions. By breaking a reaction while it's happening, you break the bond and your less likely to act that way next time - the more you break it the less repititous it becomes. I knew this before, but the movie let me look at it a different way. I'm breaking the cycle I've continously fallen in - now.
* I'm going to lose 5 pounds. When I lose 5 pounds and keep it off for a month - then I'm allowing myself to dye my hair again. This means going to the gym, only 2 pieces of candy/snacks a day, and actually practicing what I learn in pilates outside of class, lol.
* Be okay getting a B. I swear I can do it.
Break was awesome. Really low-key. Laura can and I got to show her around... and I got to hang with my buddies from home. So far 2007 has been pretty sweet. I can't wait to go back to school. : ) I have to finish the RIT GT website, my own website, my resume, - try to get an internship. As well as midterms when we get back... fun fun!
I saw a bunch of movies this break:
1. What the Bleep Do We Know?!
2. You, Me & Dupree
3. Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby
4. The Devil Wears Prada
5. Palindromes
6. Closer
7. POTC 2: Curse of the Black Pearl*
8. Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind*
9. Night at the Museam
* I've already seen before, but are worth mentioning.
I think I'm going to try out for the radio station again.
.linzi
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| Merry Christmas! |
[25 Dec 2006|08:35pm] |
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This Christmas break has been my full-fledged entrance back into the video game world. I've become slightly obsessed with Guitar Hero & the Star Wars Lego Triliogy. I already asked my mom for Guitar Hero for my birthday... mua ha ha ha. Now I just need to find someone at school that has a Playstation! But come on now, this is RIT we're talking about! Should not be hard...
Other than that... I got 'stuff that makes Linzi feel old' aka stuff for the apartment next year. I got a dinnerwear set (which is shway), glass cups, pots & pans, and all sorts of measuring tools. My mom really went all out on the "I'll be cooking for myself" bit. I rememebr when I was little seeing my mom getting pots & pans for Christmas and feeling sorry for her, but I dunno - it's kind of cool to own cooking stuff?
I also got a big yellow fluffy bathrobe that I absolutely love. I havn't taken it off since I got it - especially in this freezing house. ^^ I love it soooo much! <3 My brother got me the Star Wars Trivial Pursuit DVD Edition (XD) & Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless MInd. I miss my other movies that are all in my cow head missing somewhere at school... I really hope I didn't lose it cause there were alote of DVDs & CDs in there.
Yep - that's pretty much my day. Tim is coming over to play Guitar Hero II in a bit... : ), ttyl!
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| Cause I was bored. |
[15 Jul 2006|03:51pm] |
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
| ✓ I miss somebody right now. |
× I don't watch much TV these days. |
× I own lots of books. |
| ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. |
× I love to play video games. |
✓ I've tried marijuana. |
| ✓ I've watched porn movies. |
✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. |
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. (Ha... if by 'somtimes' you mean 'everytime'.) |
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. |
× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. |
( it goes on... )
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| stupid bogey |
[15 Jun 2006|06:42pm] |
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Things here are pretty average. I'm working during the day and occasionally hanging out with friends at night. I've given up on jumping through hoops for certain people... and it's like a whole new sense of freedom. To just sit back and not care anymore. After all, having enemies means you took a stand at some point in your life for better or for worse. The first week back I couldn't stand not being around people because I was so used to Art House, but now I'm back to the point that a day working and then coming home and reading is relaxing and enjoyable. I'm actually getting to sleep around 1:00 instead of 4!
Lately I've been going through Chuck Palahniuk books like I go through iced tea. It's like my Amelia Atwater-Rhodes obession all over again, except with the human behavior and thought process of his characters. He just has such a unique writing style about the oddest things and it fascinates me. Choke is still my favorite book he's written, but Survivor is coming in a close second. Fight Club and Lullaby are somewhere after. I definatly like the books that could be true over the overly spiritual ones. However, he talks about the Bible alote in all of them, so does that make them spiritual? Hmm.
It seems I got a big package from RIT. Let's see what it is... w00t! I'm on the dean's list!
So my mom won't stop bugging me to try to get an internship with a local Graphic Design company that's looking for a part-time worker. I'm kind of afraid to send an e-mail first off, then I have to get all my stuff together, go to an interview... ugh! I already have a job! But my mom insists - "you won't get a job in your major unless you go to internships!". If I do get an internship, this means cutting back hours working for Joyful Noises and a big chance of not getting paid. Not to mention, almost killing any chance of me taking off weekdays to see any of my out of state friends. The weight is pretty balanced with work and social life & money. Goddamnit.
I'm still working on Maryanne's website, which is turning into the project that never ends. She's paying me with Joyful Noises/Church money for her personal website. Am I going to hell for this - or is she? I'm writing about how much it costs for her to read some stupid poem she found off the internet to a dead dog - $30 + gas. How rich and stupid do you have to be to pay for someone to do that?!
I might have a gallery 'opening' downtown at The Art Room. Sandy said if I give her 7 pieces she'll hang them up with lights on then and stuff, like she's doing for Allie now. I guess this is a good start... next, the library? I better start working on some more pieces.
Speaking of art, Rachel wants me to get up at some ungodly hour to visit Mr.Meinelt tomorrow morning. -.-* This is what I get for not visiting him sooner... and not bringing art.
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| Goals of the Summer Status Check |
[11 Jun 2006|11:30am] |
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Goal 1: I've lost 4 pounds.
Goal 2: /
Goal 3: I cut my hair.
Goal 4: Got cheap clothes with rainbows!
Goal 5: Kinda... sorta...
Goal 6: I bought a canvas and have started sketching on it.
Goal 7: /
Goal 8: /
Goal 9: /
Goal 10: /
Goal 11: Concerts! So far: James Blunt, Los Lonely Boys, Memphis Blue's Band, and Cat Power.
Goal 12: Maryanne's Wedding Website is almost done.
Goal 13: Yep... doing that. Work is oh so fun. In fact, I'm even trying for an internship and working Macy's at night (maybe, ew).
Goal 14: /
Movies I've seen so far this summer (for the first time):
- X-Men: Last Stand (rating: 8/10)
- Mr. & Mrs. Smith (rating: 7.5/10)
- A Clockwork Orange (rating: most fucked up movie ever)
- Nacho Libre (rating: 8.5/10)
- Cars (rating: 10/10)
Books I've read:
- Choke by Chuck Palahniuk (rating: 10/10)
- Lullaby by Chuck Palahniuk (rating: 9/10)
- Survivor by Chuck Palahniuk (rating: 7/10)
58 days left.
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| You can tell your in Topsfield when... |
[28 May 2006|02:07pm] |
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The crime watch goes into detail about a Car / Turkey face-off. -.-* I miss the alcohol and drug busts from school already. Last night driving in the car this song came on about droping bombs, one of the sounds was a firecracker going off and it reminded me of school, lol.
So far I've been pretty busy at home. Yesterday I went to Earthfest (huge concert) and then hung out with a bunch of people over Sabby's before she left for college again. We weren't that upset because we're going on a road trip to visit her in 3 weeks anyway. :D
Today, however, I'm being a lazy ass. I havn't had the chance to be a lazy ass in a very long time and I think I'm going to sit back in my pajamas and enjoy it. However, I am being productive. I'm deciding what I want to do this summer. I guess lame is a better word for productive, but hey, it works.
I want to:
- lose the weight that that school's food put on me
- get my ears double pierced and hopefully fix the top one
- cut my hair because it's unruly now
- buy cheap / make new clothes :D
- make earrings / jewerly
- paint a huge triptych to put on my wall of our room next year :D
- visit school friends
- visit Chris (awwww)
- visit home fries (that are away)
- learn how to surf (doing that in Hawaii)
- go to as many concerts as possible (I'll need Tim's help for this one)
- make 2 websites
- work at Joyful Noises (gak!)
- hopefully go to Lollapalooza with Laura (complete and utter longshot)
Can I do this in less than 87 days? Sure, why not?
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| lots of sex, drugs, and rock and roll |
[01 May 2006|03:25pm] |
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I absolutely love life. I mean exactly that. Of course, my school work is overwhelming... and I'm already signing up for classes next year (two 8 ams... mother fucker), everything is just so fast paced and I love it. A part of me worries that life is passing me by, but I'd rather be rushing through days completely enjoying life than sitting around waiting for something to happen. It just seems better that way. Nothing is expected, everyday is different.
I went to Toronto this past weekend - it was awesome. We got there around 10 the Friday night and we to the bar across the street. I refused any drinks cause I wanted to go out to dinner with the people I'd come in the car with (most the them were already smashed), but as I'm standing there the bartender comes over with a double shot of vodka and goes "this is from the man end, I think he's hoping to get some". -.-* Chris fits so perfectly into the bar scene it's not even funny. I went over to thank him and Ross hugs me saying he's happy that Chris and I finally got together... and went into great explanation about how we should have sex that night. *sigh* Oh Ross...
So after that we walked around and got some food, then went back to the bar - had a sex on the beach. There is something nice about being able to buy and drink alcohol in public. You don't feel quilty about it and don't have the feeling like you need to get shitfaced. I'm proud to say I was never shitfaced the entire weekend. :D We just chilled in the hotal after that... and made fun of the guys (who picked up some pregger women).
The next day we went to a 5 story mall - it was awesome. Just walking around Toronto for the day was awesome. Caitlin and I went across the street and stood outside of Canadian Idol... hahaha, like we can sing. We went to a sports bar for dinner... and I tried an Alabama slammer - soooo good. Unfortuntaly no where we went had strawberry daquiris (sp?). Oh well, I'm not that upset. That night Chris and I drank before going to the club... and then Caitlin, Aeryn, and I drank in the bathroom at the club cause we didn't want to pay for their over priced drinks. The club was awwwwwweeesome. I had so much fun. Chris stayed with me the most of the time just to make sure that none of the sketchy guys made a move. It was sweet of him. Liz brought me up on stage and pretended to make out with me, just to piss Chris off. So he hoped up and it became a kiss one- then the other fun. Highly amusing. We walked the way back from the club, after our police encounter before on the train. Then got pizza with Vickie, Jill, and Dylan around 3. Graeme came back to the room with us to eat and was telling everyone what kind of shampoo they used by kissing their head. He also claimed that Chris and I would have a 6 legged baby... oh dear. We passed out after that.
The next day was spent mostly driving and then sleeping outside back at school.
Yeah so, this weekend kicked ass. Tonight I'm going to see 'The Books' in concert. :D
P.S. What are we going to do this summer you guys?!
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| stolen from chi chi the eskimo queen |
[20 Apr 2006|11:24am] |
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Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post a line from the first 15 (haha) songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song**
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: No cheating
Since I listen to the weirdest music... good luck, maybe it will all be easy stuff.
Here we go!
1. "I've allowed my fears to get larger than life"
2. "Lucine, Lucien, Lucien, Lucien. You should know!"
3. "I remember when my mother would get sick, she would vomit all over the kitchen"
4. "Leather pants, Happiness, A hundred dollars, Buy success, Hanging with your fashionable whores"
5. "no no no no no I won't be coming home, make sure she knows, make sure she knows"
6. "'Cause nothing else will do instead for reassuring eternity"
7. "There's my coach he's looking down, the disappointment in his knitted brow"
8. "I'm no longer moved to drink strong whiskey, I shook the hand of time and I knew"
9. "Oh ah oh, get in the action-feel the attraction, color my hair-do what I dare" -.-*
10. "Here we are, here we are, we are antici - there it is! there it is! That's the picture!"
11. "Don't stand up, I feel strange, When you go"
12. "Hey people, looking out the window at the city below, Hey people, looking out the window, you'll be gone tomorrow"
13. "Dude, where's my fucking schnitzel?"
14. "Fon, Jo and Tootsie, are out on a wire"
15. "And if you don't throw in your buck-o-five, who will?"
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| survey? ...kind of. |
[30 Mar 2006|01:22am] |
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Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. (If you want to, I mean, I'm not gonna physically force you or anything...)
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| a day in the life of linzi |
[25 Mar 2006|03:08pm] |
I just got back from my OA interview process day... talk about nerve-racking. I met a bunch of really cool people though and I really hope I get the job. -.-* Being an OA would be awesome. I dunno, I just like helping people and making friends a little too much maybe.
Metals fucking kicks ass. I'm going down there again today and help Dan and play with fire. I love it soooo much. It's sooo cool. :D I'm making the shibbiest set of earrings. I can't wait!!!
I hate Imaging for New Media and Psychology. Pa-tooey. Psych is interesting, it's just alote of work. Typography is awesome - as is drawing. Once again I'm better than most of the class and I wish my teacher would be harder on me. Oh well.
What else... I have a boyfriend. A real one. Yay!
Goodnight.
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| never figure him out |
[06 Mar 2006|12:53am] |
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I feel like I'm bugging him, but that's how I've always felt... and for some reason he likes me for it. I hope I don't rub off.
My hands are freezing. I leave for Connecticut in 13 hours. Squee!! I'm kind of really excited. :) New York here I come!!!! Fo' shizzle.
Uh, home time was short lived. I spent most of it shopping or seeing people. I got lots of new clothes - I'm very excited. I'm an attention whore, but it's okay.
Pump it.
I'm tired... and cold. Goodnight everyone. :D
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| v-a-c-a-tion |
[04 Mar 2006|08:01pm] |
I'm home! Yay!
I totally have motivation to write in here like... 2 minutes ago and now I don't care. Sorry.
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| 3. Sweet Surrender |
[28 Feb 2006|09:31am] |
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It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home
And sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give
You take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
are you an angel
am I already that gone
I only hope
that I won't disappoint you
when I'm down here
on my knees
And sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give
Sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give
And I don't understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall
I miss the little things
oh I miss everything
It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I left behind me
is a cold room.
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| so excited, design girl |
[23 Feb 2006|07:34am] |
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So I can't wait till my 2D project is over cause then we get to move the room around. Of course Laura and I are genuinely lazy. but on the other hand we want something new for Spring Quarter and it's time for SPRING CLEANING! Yay! My bed will be closer to the ground! Yay! I've have incentive to get up in the morning... hahahahaha, I mean, yay!
I hope she wants to do it, cause that's a big thing. When I couldn't sleep last night I just sat up in bed thinking of all the cool ways we could rearrange the room. The best one involves balancing stuff and being able to work at our desks from our beds. Sweeeeeeeeet. I have Time-Based Imaging this morning and then NO OTHER CLASSES today - how sweet is that? Huh? Huh? Amazingly sweet.
I'm working with my hands! Casting is so great - 24/7. Painting comes next. Then Marriage. Maybe the whole baby carriage part, but I'm not sure yet.
I have Buffy the Musical stuck in my head - Caitlin and I watched it yesterday as a break from our constant workload. Chris came in, turned around, and left about 4 times. He loves it, he knows he does.
IT'S ALMOST SPRING BREAK!!!
Projects that need to get done:
- Final Arts of Expression Paper
- Time-Based Imaging Animation
- Time-Based Imaging CD
- New Media Perspectives Flash Powerpoint
- Mounted Graphic Design Poster
- 2D Feet
That actually isn't that bad. Finals week, huzzah!
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| fuckin' A |
[22 Feb 2006|04:53pm] |
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Last night I drank a Starbucks Doubleshot at 11:00 and ended up not able to sleep the entire night. This is my secound day in a row of no sleep, and I probably won't get to bed at a reasonable time tonight either. It's starting to show...
Not only do I have PMS, but I've moved on to stage 3. Stage 1 of not sleeping is zoning out and being a little less like yourself, Stage 2 is being mopey and unresponsive, and Stage 3 is getting bitch happy. Everything and everyone is pissing me off.
Swear to God if I hear "you need a boyfriend" or "you need to get laid" one more time I will punch either Greg or Ross in the face. I understand I don't have a boyfriend, but I'm kind of content just having awkward crushes on people at the moment. Would I like a boyfriend? Yes. Am I going to be a slut so I can get laid? No. And I'm fucking tired of Ross treating me like I'm 12... yes, I'm so saintly and virgin-like. Ha. Hahahaha. Ha.
And for GOD'S SAKE MAYBE I LIKE GETTING ALL MY WORK DONE AND GETTING GOOD GRADES - IS THAT SUCH A BAD THING?!
Otherwise, I've started to dream reality. Talking to inanimate objects and such... I think I'm going insane.
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| valentine's day round up |
[16 Feb 2006|09:48am] |
So... it seems I have a few admirers and one of them is an asshole*.
For Valentine's day I got:
the already mentioned rose from Teo
and flower from Matt
a box of Godiva Chocolates and a mix CD from Chris
a rose in a pretty box, a bushel of bananas, chocolate roses, and a sweet card from Graeme
a rose, box of cookies, and the weirdest letter ever from Barry*
a lot of flowers, a sweet card, oreo cookies, and a sponge from Caitlin
a piece of chocolate from Aeryn
and a bent spoon, a couple dimes, and a piece of string from Eric...
who ever said being single on Valentine's day was a bad thing?!
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| sleep? |
[14 Feb 2006|03:28am] |
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I need to learn how to sleep. I woke up at 12 yesterday, so my mind is all out of whack.
I have to go to sleep and get up within the next 3 hours.
I got two flowers for Valentine's day (one from Matt and one from Teo - what sweeties).
It's snowing out; which is amazing. All of you know how much I love snow.
Tomorrow is gonna rock - rock.
A un-announced person *cough cough* sent me a text message asking for me to sleep in their bed tonight. Hahahahahahaha. Love is in the air?
I. love. you. all.
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| she's the one gone mad |
[06 Feb 2006|09:38pm] |
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She'll do it anyway. Couldn't even say. She won't be alone... realise. She's too nice to you and you're too nice to her, you don't let each other breath. There comes a time, when love with unwind, but you're still you. Love can damage your health.
You don't put up a fight.
I am beyond stressed right now. I'm at the point that the stress level has gone to "I'm not even bothering"... or - I know this project sucks and I have no clue what to do about it cause I can't fix it now. I just feel like time is slowly swallowing me up. Not to mention a horrible headache, beyond words.
I just want to go to sleep. Just get up in my bed, and fall asleep. HOWEVER - I need to do my project before that. 2D needs to get done. NOW. Maybe I could read for a bit before I got to bed too for Arts of Expression. I just - ururgrgrghgghhhh.
It's too much. Everything is just so overwhelming at the moment.
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| any way the wind blows... |
[31 Jan 2006|07:30am] |
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I feel incredibly un-inspired. You always imagine the art kids as full of outlandish ideas that become a reality on paper (and such), but here at RIT - this is not the case. I am not inspired at all. For the last couple of projects I've had to bang my head against something sharp and pointy for awhile before I can think of something remotely original and likeable (for me). There are a million easy answers, and when I'm lazy I take them (mostly in 2D), but for the most part I really want to feel like I'm improving... and that means not slacking off or taking the easy route out.
The sad thing is, besides my drawings and graphic design - I'm not really proud proud of anything I've done here compared to the proud feeling I got when I was done work in highschool. I look back and feel like I've gotten worse rather than better. At the same time, I had a lot more time to work on projects in highschool AND I had other classes so that I didn't have to strain my creative juices for every class.
I needed a change. I moved my desk around in our room and already it feels so much better. I have the window to my right, Laura in front of me, and the door to the hallway of never dying action to the left. It's weird to think about, but as great as Art House is - it defintaly hinders you getting work done if you have ADD (like myself) cause you're constantly pulled into the hallway, other people's rooms, or people show up in yours. I love that that happens, but for me, it doesn't help. They come to me for ideas and I can come up with a million and one ideas for them, but none for myself. How fucking weird is that?
I'm doing great - just a little stressed that end of the quarter is coming up already. We have to sign up for housing next year and spring quarter classes by the end of this week. XP
Tim comes up in 2 days! Sweeeeeeeeet. I guess we'll figure out what's up then... and how this is gonna work out. I kind of enjoy living day to day rather than in the future/past. You feel less lonely, when you don't love somebody, that way. If you do feel lonely, it's only for a little while and then you move on quickly. 4 people in the room this weekend! It's like old times again...
The Mafia play is this weekend as well. I don't know if Tim would want to come to that... perhaps he'll just hang with Megan. Go get completely stoned. -.-* I don't know if I want to be stoned or not, ever. If I visit Tim at UVM it will probably happen. I just don't want him to get here and be completely bored out of his mind cause we're not drinking or smoking this weekend. O.o*
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| Hmmm... |
[30 Jan 2006|11:02pm] |
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I DON'T WANT TO DO MY HOMEWORK!
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